What do I do
How do I be happy
How do I
not
Do the things that – don’t – make me happy
How do I be one.
One of those happy bitches
You know
The bombshell ones
Blonde hair, blue eyes, never weigh over 120
Always down for a good time
Breaking hearts, taking names , turning heads
What the hell
I’ll never be that
I’m stuck in this fucked up
Body
This fucked up
mind
Too fucked up to be one of them but not fucked up enough to be justified
And why do I even care
Who fucking knows
I wish I didn’t
But I do
How do I change that?
How do I change ME
Please help me change me
I can’t stand it